:( it's like a month and i'll turn 30!! the thing is i'm not thinking of the 30.. the idea that it's only a matter of ten years and i will be 40 is aching my head and that i didn't live my 20's with anyone in a proper way is aching my heart. and this horrible feeling that i will continue living like this from work to home and from home to work is controling me, i feel like life has ended..that's it.. i know exactly what is going to happen from now till they put me in grave.
Well happy birthday nonetheless, and have a lot of glasses of sparkly fizzy drinks that make you feel light-headed, very very very friendly and cheerful for no real reason.
Oh Lujayn. We'll be in the same club (the 40's) for a whole year almost. Then I'll graduate and join Abu Kareem. Happy Birthday and listen, sometime life starts much later than this ;-)
Abu Fares, I like the idea of being in the same club, but the 40 thingie keeps raining on my parade. Of course, our lives are not going to bed one age and waking up another - they are continuams, and the change is not that defined or clear-cut, but somehow the number just ages you even more. Its not vanity (I'm a proponent of embracing one's grey hair). Its the feeling that a large chunk of your life has passed and practicality has set in. I need to be healthy to avoid illness, I need to save money cause I wont be working forever, I need to start figuring out what I want to do with my life, cause being clueless at 40 is not funny any more :)
But thats not to say, thank you all for the birthday wishes! I enjoyed my celebrations and being surrounded by loved ones every bit as much as I enjoyed my pre-30's birthdays! Just as long as nobody mentioned 40!
Omniah, please share any time you please, but I was kind of assuring you that despite not liking 40, its not THAT bad, so hang in there! :))
Listen, you can do something about your lifestyle (work and home) at any point in your life and at any age. And finding someone to share your life with happens whenever you are ready for it. I found my man at 33, and didnt marry him until I was 39.
OK, so maybe I am exaggerating my dislike of 40, and being a bit of a drama queen, cause in all honesty, my life kind of started straightening itself out in my late 30s, whereas I was really confused and miserable in my 20s. I'm still not completely sorted out and that bothers me, but hey, I have time. No pressure :)))
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it's like a month and i'll turn 30!!
the thing is i'm not thinking of the 30..
the idea that it's only a matter of ten years and i will be 40 is aching my head and that i didn't live my 20's with anyone in a proper way is aching my heart.
and this horrible feeling that i will continue living like this from work to home and from home to work is controling me,
i feel like life has ended..that's it.. i know exactly what is going to happen from now till they put me in grave.
:(
i think u r right..
happy birthday
Well happy birthday nonetheless, and have a lot of glasses of sparkly fizzy drinks that make you feel light-headed, very very very friendly and cheerful for no real reason.
You ARE getting funnier. :)
Lujayn,
I am sorry if I don't feel your pain because a few months ago I got to the Big 5-0!!!
Oh Lujayn. We'll be in the same club (the 40's) for a whole year almost. Then I'll graduate and join Abu Kareem.
Happy Birthday and listen, sometime life starts much later than this ;-)
Omniah, ok, i'm not crazy about 40 but its not as bad as that! I am not ready to lay down and die, for sure!
Rime, I thought I was always funny! :)
Abu Kareem, fine, if thats the way you want to play, I dont feel your pain either! :)) Happy belated birthday!
Abu Fares, I like the idea of being in the same club, but the 40 thingie keeps raining on my parade. Of course, our lives are not going to bed one age and waking up another - they are continuams, and the change is not that defined or clear-cut, but somehow the number just ages you even more. Its not vanity (I'm a proponent of embracing one's grey hair). Its the feeling that a large chunk of your life has passed and practicality has set in. I need to be healthy to avoid illness, I need to save money cause I wont be working forever, I need to start figuring out what I want to do with my life, cause being clueless at 40 is not funny any more :)
But thats not to say, thank you all for the birthday wishes! I enjoyed my celebrations and being surrounded by loved ones every bit as much as I enjoyed my pre-30's birthdays! Just as long as nobody mentioned 40!
and i , for sure, didn't mean that you are "ready to lie down in the grave"!
i was wrong to choose ur birthday to share these feelings.
happy 40 anyway
Regards
Omniah, please share any time you please, but I was kind of assuring you that despite not liking 40, its not THAT bad, so hang in there! :))
Listen, you can do something about your lifestyle (work and home) at any point in your life and at any age. And finding someone to share your life with happens whenever you are ready for it. I found my man at 33, and didnt marry him until I was 39.
OK, so maybe I am exaggerating my dislike of 40, and being a bit of a drama queen, cause in all honesty, my life kind of started straightening itself out in my late 30s, whereas I was really confused and miserable in my 20s. I'm still not completely sorted out and that bothers me, but hey, I have time. No pressure :)))
Drama queen, that's all :)
I've been missing you btw. A belated happy birthday.
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